Appearance and Cancer

Years before cancer, if I saw someone who was fighting cancer I though they looked bad. Their face was almost a grey color and they were very thin.
I think over the years cancer treatment has gotten better and the drugs they give you for nausea allow you to keep food down, the steroids they give increase your appetite, so you eat, but you feel horrible, so you stay sedentary.

When I was first diagnosed in 2007 I got a wig, learned how to wear make up to look like I had eyebrows, and thought I looked my best. As I got to my 3rd battle, I never even put the wig on my head. I did wear make up, but my wardrobe lacked so much. I felt horrible, and fat, and even went to work bald one day. It's not that I didn't care how I looked, I just got tired of trying to hide it for their sake. I always thought if I looked well, they wouldn't treat me like I was sick. Last year, I didn't care what people thought anymore.

Well I must have really looked like crap during the last battle, because so many people who haven't seen me in a while tell me how great I look. So how bad did I really look? Either I looked really really bad or I'm looking really really good now, or people are just being nice. Oh well, just glad it's over, and I need to go shopping for some new clothes. ;-)