Last Treatment!!

Yippie, I made it through 12 treatments, 4 months!!!

The following week will probably be my worst since chemo is cumulative. I already can't walk up a flight of steps without being totally winded. Next week at work I will park in the Handicapped parking, which I hate, but I will not have the energy to walk across the parking lot. It's ok, it's only temporary.

The kids are already bugging me about school shopping. God forbid they go to school the first couple weeks in the clothes they own.

I haven't decided if I should post a picture of my chest yet. I'm not sure most of you can handle it, and maybe It's something people shouldn't see.

Doctor made sure he told me of all the side effects of the cancer returning in specific organs.
Brain: Dizziness, double vision, loss of balance, headaches
Liver: Pain in upper right quadrant of my torso
Lungs: Shortness of breath and unproductive cough
Bones: Constant pain in back, ribs, torso area that does not go away.

He also said if I hear about the PARP inhibitor being released before he does which is unlikely to call him and he'll put me on it right away.

I can't remember if I mentioned in past posts, but the PARP Inhibitor is a new drug that shows promise for Triple Negative BC people like me. We are waiting for FDA approval, which could happen in the fall.

Things I can't wait for:
Hair to start growing - should be about 4 weeks from today, funny how hair tops this list. I'm so tired of trying to match the hats with outfits.
-being able to go to church
-nose hairs to return, you never realize what they do till they're gone
-energy to return
-short term memory to return, but don't know if this will happen or not. Chemo kills brain cells
-being able to multi task....chemo brain is awful
-being able to walk for exercise
-having energy for my kids and my husband (wink, wink)
-no more yeast infections because my white counts will be normal
-being able to keep up on house work
-being able to start my work day at 8:00 vs 9:30

So many normal things that we take for granted is taken away when you go through this.

I would like to thank all of you who read my blog even those who I do not know.
I hope that I have given people a small glimpse into my world and maybe made the C word a little less scary and more understandable to people who have not gone through this ugly struggle.

I want to thank all of you who prayed for me, who just asked how I was feeling or just for putting up with my absent mindedness, the cards, the well wishes. I love you all. You and Jesus helped me get through the past 4 months. I know that I am healed for now, and I pray that the cancer is gone for good.

Now on to reconstruction. I want to post a pic, but not sure how you will take it...Please let me know - - Do you want to see or not.

It's not too bad...just 2 lumps of flesh with no nipples, it really does not even resemble breasts yet, and that's why I need to complete the reconstruction, which means more surgery.

Plan to update you all with pics of my hair...kinda like a Chia pet....watch it grow!!!

Love you all!!!