Why the blog? April 2010

Why the blog you ask? why not just facebook it all?
Many people have suggested I start a journal. Can't tell you why I haven't.

Many people ask me how I'm feeling, so instead of answering the same questions over and over again I thought I'd let people into my life by a blog. I hope I don't bore too many of you, but I feel like if you keep up with the blog then you will know how I'm doing and we can talk about something else.

It seems like when your sick (or battling cancer, becuase I'm really not sick) that's all people want to talk about, I know people love me and care about me, but I do try to have a life around the doctor's appointments, surgeries, and chemotherapy. Please don't get me wrong I'm am very greatful for your concern, just would like to be identified by something else besides this aweful cancer.

I would like to keep you all updated with my 3rd journey through the Ugly C. That's how I will refer to this stupid cancer, the Ugly C maybe just Uglyc (one word) what do you think? I plan to take lots of picures and hopefully introduce you to some of the people and places I will visit on a regular basis.

Anyway if you know me you know that the Triple Negative Breast Cancer has returned for a 3rd time, and I'm handling it quite well, thank you very much. I know God has me in his hands. It's amazing how he makes you feel at peace about things.

My kids cried when they heard the news again. I told them that we've gotten through the past 2 bouts with this, and we'll get through this one.

Last summer was the summer I was going to get my breasts back, but it didn't work out as well as I planned, so this year I planned to compelte the process, but that's not what the Uglyc wanted, so I will have to wait. I have a couple of fills left in the right side expander to go to get to the size I and the docs agree on.

Tomorrow I meet with Dr. Firdaus, my Oncologist. He will decide what poison, to infuse into my veins, and how often and how long. I will lose the hair again, and it seems more of a big deal this time then the first 2 times. Maybe becuase It took me so long to get it where I am really happy with it. It's ok, it will grow back and people tell me I have a nicely shaped head.